Just a little bit of mommy angst....

Jack and I went to breastfeeding group tonight. It was nice, just a small group of us, talking pumps and supply and flange guages, all that good stuff! :) I am always a bit torn about attending groups. A part of me loves the chance to see the other babies and talk with the other moms, focusing on that side of myself for a while. But then I start to slip into comparison mode. There was a 4 month old at group tonight who was doing more rolling than Jack, just as much reaching, and already starting to sit up unassisted. I know in my conscious mind that all babies develop at different rates. I also know that really, I am in NO hurry for this little guy to be mobile. We aren't babyproofed in the least. And yet, I continue falling into the trap of comparing him, wanting him to be on the "advanced track" of development, worrying that he is behind and that it could indicate other problems. When I am with just him, of course, he is perfect. He is a happy and beautifiul littly guy with a quiet, observant personality and a bit of a whiny side. He's a champion at sitting up and likes to play with the tags on his toys. He is just starting to approximate sleeping through the night-- last night he slept from 7:30-4:30, woke to eat, and carried on for 3 more hours. Really, he's such a great baby. So why can't I just relax and enjoyhim the way he is, night now?